I thought I would write all three of my college essays today …. I was wrong.  I don’t know what my deal is, but I cannot seem to organize my thoughts on paper very well.  I finished one, but I am not happy with it at all.  I don’t think it accurately reflects my heart, but I just don’t know how to get it that way.  I need help, badly, and I wanted to send everything in this weekend, but now I have musical too.. and I am just freaking out.

Well, despite that, I found a good song.  Take a listen …

Matt Nathanson- “Car Crash”

I’m wide awake and so alive
Ringing like a bell
Tell me this is paradise
And not someplace I fell
‘Cause I keep on fallin’ down

I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
‘Til I’m satisfied
I wanna feel the car crash
‘Cause I’m dyin’ on the inside
I wanna let go and know
That I’ll be alright, alright

Just push me ’til I have to fly
I’ve shed my skin, my scars
Take me deep out past the lights
Where nothing dims these stars
Nothing dims these stars

I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
‘Til I’m satisfied
I wanna feel the car crash
‘Cause I’m dyin’ on the inside
I wanna let go and know
That I’ll be alright, alright

So right
It’s all wrong

I’m wide awake and so alive